Love this pic of us cos its sucha candid picture!
My silly boy always does silly things to make me laugh… can’t believe its been 18 months since i fell for him. Sometimes, it still feels alil unreal. Haha.
Finally updating this space because my bf has finally decided to take pictures with meeeee.
Celebrated his birthday at ocean restaurant and the view was seriously soooooo good. But the food was disappointing for the price, but i guess its all about the view? Oh well! #finediningisntforus!
Second birthday spent together and many more to come. Can’t wait for more adventures with you! Really hope you had a great 2 days (even though the flyknit shoe you want is oos)!
The past 2 weeks have been extremely tiring for the both of us. He has started school (boohoo) and at the same time, help me with the whole moon cake event. It was so tiring that at times, i really really didn’t want to do it anymore but its all because of this boy of mine who gave me the strength to continue doing it! Thank you for being a sweetheart although you were such a wet blanket at times which made me want to shut you up by screaming at you, but i still love you <3
Couple of days ago, i posted about missing my weekly cafe hopping adventures so my very sweet boyfriend decided to bring me to a new and really cool cafe at west coast. Its probably gonna be our new hangout place because its such a pretty place. Although my gums were still healing from my wisdom tooth surgery, greedy me still ate the apple crumble.
Speaking of my wisdom tooth surgery, my face was swollen for 2 days and i was soooo sad about it and felt so ugly and fat but he kept reassuring me that its just temporal and that I’m still his favourite. awwwww. sugar overload! When he brought me out to red star for extremely yummy dim sum, he was so meticulous in helping me cut my food into little pieces so that i could put them in my mouth.
SO grateful for him and i honestly miss going on dates and taking pictures together :( Can’t wait for this fridate! Its gonna really be TGIF and i hope you would enjoy yourself as much as i know i will <3
We see each other almost everyday but its been 3 weeks since we last took a picture together ):
Havent felt this disappointed in you before. Today made me realise how important i am to you. You know how i felt but you chose to make your friend happy/give him face/save your own face at the expense on the girl you claim to love.
School has started for you and i’m slowly trying to get use to the idea of not having you around to wake me up and not being able to go for our cafe dates as often and not being able to roam the streets/malls aimlessly anymore.
I’m glad i have this whole moon cake roadshows to keep me busy and occupied so i won’t feel so alone. Speaking of moon cake, this roadshow has brought about some unpleasant situations but IMO, its a blessing in disguise. Such poison is detrimental. If it stays any longer in our blood streams, it would probably cost us way more than what we have lost.
After 3 days of working, its rest day tomorrow + i get to go out with my bf! hehe. I can’t wait!
Time to revive this place as i think its getting more depressing! Loving my new shades which i used my hard earn money to purchase!!
Cant believe school’s gonna start for him soon. Boohoo. No more weekly cafe adventures, no more thrice a week gym session, no more walking around town and running errands without any worry or guilt about studies. This is also possibly the last holiday we get to spend together in this way…
On a brigher note, my boy’s finally not a freshman anymore! One year nearer to graduation!
Oh well, lets take things a step at a time and enjoy every single moment with each other. For we do not know what the future has in store for us, so no point worrying right??
Shall end off with a verse i took with me today: “A thousand may fall at your side, ten thousand at your right hand, but it will not come near you” - psalm 91
A battle i must go through every now and then. I’m tired. I feel like my whole system is breaking apart. Everything in me feels wrong. So So So much is being weighed upon me and its getting more unbearable. I know i have to have faith but day by day, it fades away and I’m back to feeling like shit.
This pain i feel, this weight i feel; when will it ever be taken away. Or do i have to live with it for the rest of my life? The endless worrying, the constant fear; is it ever gonna stop?
I want to leave it all to god. This helpless feeling is eating me from within. No one but him, can help me.
Another dreadful month
#Ndp2014 NE show with my sunshine boy on sat. Weather was sooooo bad but im glad you were with me that made everything bearable! (:
On a more serious note, i hope this is the last time i have to go through this. And i hope i never ever have to make that same mistake again. I trust god has a plan for me and i know he loves me despite all the mistakes I’ve made and hence i trust he wont let me get hurt again. In your most precious name, amen.
I thought i will not have to go through this again. After all, i made many promises, which i have failed to keep. I feel so ashamed, so disappointed. It really isn’t easy, having to battle this emotionally yet again and all i can do is to have faith and leave everything to him.
I will live up to my promise in the days to come. I will. I’m sorry for making the same mistakes over and over again. I will show you how serious i am about putting this emotional pain to a stop. In the meanwhile, please don’t give up on me father, please continue to watch over me and to love me.
In your most precious name, Amen.